AVG - Day 5

We consider ourselves as someone or somebody that only binds us and we are not liberated. This is the challenge that our country is facing today. Either we consider ourselves as shoshit (one who is ruled/prosecuted) or shoshak (one who rules/prosecutes).In either of the cases you are filled with aatma glaani (self-pity) or you are filled with fear (bhaya bheet).In fear there is no feeling of belongingness. In either these cases we are not happy. You are ever present and pure consciousness like the sky (aakash) .Don’t limit yourself to your limited roles, profession. You are much bigger than them. (tum apne simit paatr se bahut bade ho).Either we consider ourselves as too good or too weak either of these feelings is not favorable for the person who is treading THIS path. We get entangled by thinking that “WE ARE SOMEONE” and then we start enjoying this thinking, that is the biggest misfortune and it is a sign of victim consciousness ( rugn chitta).And you are not that. We have to change our way of looking at it (drishthi badalne ki der hai).Aatma is ever present like the sky. Who says you are bound. You are liberated and the witness of all. It`s only that you have forgotten that you are liberated.”I am doing” – this big black serpentine feeling has bit you.”I am not the doer” drink the nectar of this feeling and become happy. It`s like the poison of the doer ship has spread in every pore of your body, to counter that poison drink the nectarine feeling of “I AM NOT THE DOER” and become happy. You go and ask any biggest of biggest culprit, “Did you commit the crime?” His reply will be” I never knew how I did it. It just happened. I did not do it.”A person kills his wife, wife`s brother and his sister-in-law and goes and admits in police station that he did but when asked why did he do it. He replies “I never knew what I was doing. It just happened in the flare of anger. I did not do it.” There is one tattwa which is a witness which has never involved in any action or which has never done anything. Keep your thoughts pure, you eat pure food, and take care of the company(sang) you are with as all these effect our mind, body however the pure consciousness(self) is the akarta or the non-doer.
“I am the only one, pure and bodh roop(embodiment of knowledge )”- Having this strong nischay(thought/decision) clear the darkest of ignorance .Discarding all grief become happy. We all have an innate desire to be happy we have a greed for happiness. Even meditation we do it for the sake of happiness because we have the greed to be with the paramaatma .We do any work, any entertainment, or we play or we do any action with liking for it is just because we have the goal to find that one happiness in it. Either by bhog or by yog you just want happiness (bhog se ya yog se bus such mile) .Why is there a desire for happiness, it is because you want yourself (yeh chah hai kyunki tumhara chah apne aap ka hai).It is because you are the source of all happiness(tum sukhswaroop ho).For ex. A dog starts chewing a bone and after sometime it starts bleeding and the poor dog thinks that blood is coming out from the bone. Similarly, we think that we are getting happiness out of something that’s our foolishness. When there is duality there is fear. Where there is love there is unity. Where there is fear how can love exist there. It is because of doer ship that fear arises. You are bodh maatra(the mere presence which witnesses) ,don’t fall in greed ,as greed will take you too far away from happiness. The presence for what you are searching, is you. You are that presence you have been searching for so long. You need not have to go to pilgrimages, caves and all that. Just be there that’s it. We stick our happiness to certain things and these things keep changing. And the gap in which the change happens is the point where we get carried away that is called as the real source of happiness. Say for ex. You have been living in Goa, you have been there but going to Kashmir will always be a welcome change for you, but ask people in Kashmir how they live. Similarly people who are in Kashmir will get pleasant experience in Goa but this is not true for the people who are residing in Goa. By changing people, situation and things you will not experience happiness. In change there is no happiness. In action there is no happiness experienced. It is only when we leave or let go that we will be happy.(vishraam mein hi sukh hai).To sit and relax is the source of happiness. Even if you leave things, but keep ego within you, what is the use. Leave it outside or not, you have to leave that inner resistance (ego) from within, else how will saakshi bhaava arise. The moment resistance or holding from within drops that moment you become gentle, polite, soft and natural (taral).Being rude or hesitant or resistant is the indication of ego (ahankaar).To attempt to become something or to prove that I am something is ego. I am nothing .This softness is the characteristic of saakshi bhaava. This thought is like a fire in which all the sorrows are burnt. The fire in which our whole life is being burnt, just see the faces there is no happiness, no enthusiasm. It`s like as if they are dead. The sign of life is happiness, enthusiasm and why this is not there because sorrow has burnt this happiness and only this fire of knowledge can burn this fire of sorrow. Discard self pity.(bodh agni se aag ko jagaao aur sukhi ho jaao).Be far away from the fire of passion and desires.(dukh se mukt hokar sukhi ho jaao).
It was the dark fortnight (amaavasya) and a person was walking through a jungle where he had a torch light which was very dim due to low battery and there on the way he found something lying down considering it be snake he did not budge because of the fear but when there was lightning , in that moment of lightning ,he saw that it was not snake it was a rope tried to a bucket he took a stick , removed the rope and moved on. Similarly, in this life time once if we understand that we are vishuudh chaitanya and once this knowledge blossoms in us we are liberated. How many times you make a pre conceived notions about others and you see 90% of these pre conceived notions are wrong. All these notins and thinking are inside me. I am a witness to all these. How many times have you been hit by the storm of emotions like anger, greed, and passion? Don’t get swept away in that storm. Learn from your experience, you don’t have to see somebody else and learn. In your childhood you cried for toys. Sometime later you had fight with your friends. You lost some amount in share market and see the faces. This body is anyways going to be on funeral pyre. You have already lost the money and along with that you want to loose happiness also. If you are sad its ok but you need not have to show that you are sad in the expressions .You be happy and peaceful. Often those people who consider themselves as peaceful are the cause for all disturbances. We forget that we are the pure consciousness and once we remember that we become a part of it and with this nischay even if your acts are ordinary there will be no problems.(tum vishesh bhi ho aur nirvishesh bh.).Knowing this you relax. How much ever strong may be the storm of emotion you remain peaceful, become a witness. Don’t flow in the storm of emotions; just become a witness to it. Don’t attempt to suppress these emotions because then you become a doer. just be a witness.(aap chidroop ho iss se aapko kuch nuksaan nahi hua).How many ever clouds come and cover the sky .It does not effect the sky , similarly you also become immovable and unshakeable with this feeling you be steadfast. There is only one atom. At the molecular level all these substances are made up of different elements but you go deep in the micro level you understand that “sab kuch parmaanu se bana hua hai”. All water, stones, mountain and even this body is made up of that same paramaanu.(woh drishthi tum ko mil jaaye ).Every jewelry(earring, nose ring, bangle or necklace) is gold for goldsmith and for a blacksmith everything is iron. Everything is made out of that paramaanu and you are that parmaanu which is there in that mahattava also. (jis se tum bane ho woh aananad hi hai).When we forget this we become sad. The more we relax and repose in our self , the happy we become.
Q: Guruji, I have done so many sins, am I eligible to be on this path. I am repenting for those sins. What do I do?
A: That repentance (prayaschit) you have is enough .You are liberated this moment. Past is past remembering that move on. Be in the moment. Repentance washes away all the sins.